Waddup eaaybody, well first off, lemme tell a lil' about myself, my name is Nick, im 17, from Michigan, I've been postin' here for a while, I don't know to many of y'all.. and I know y'all don't know a whole lot about me..
But anywho, I've just been thinking, When does life look up for one? Me.. I don't have a whole lot going on for me right now.. that's real, and to be honest, I've never really have. I've never really been in a relationship, so lonleyness haunts me all the time.. I've never truely felt loved by anybody, well besides my mom, she's the only one that I feel truely loves me. I'm not really close at all with my family.. I feel that it's just me and me only, I'm usually by myself for a good 60 - 70 % of the day. I've been trying lately to get closer to my family, It's not that easy.. My dad, he's on unemployment, and has been for a minute, he's also an alcoholic, in denial. He won't get help for the life of him.. but that's whatever. We've never really been much of a wealthy family, but we've also never been flat broke like we are now. I'm tired of seeing my mom down and depressed all the time, it crushes me like y'all don't even know...
I've looked like mad for even a part-time job, and I can't find shit. My city I live in has no oppourtunity whatsoever for a ungraduated 17 year old.
Everything in my life seems so dull.. I don't have a whole lot.. but i mean, i deal with it, whatever. But the thing is, no matter how hard i think i try at life, i cannot succeed..
I mean, i never even feel hopeful anymore.. I just need some kind of motivation.. somethin'... =/
But anywho, I've just been thinking, When does life look up for one? Me.. I don't have a whole lot going on for me right now.. that's real, and to be honest, I've never really have. I've never really been in a relationship, so lonleyness haunts me all the time.. I've never truely felt loved by anybody, well besides my mom, she's the only one that I feel truely loves me. I'm not really close at all with my family.. I feel that it's just me and me only, I'm usually by myself for a good 60 - 70 % of the day. I've been trying lately to get closer to my family, It's not that easy.. My dad, he's on unemployment, and has been for a minute, he's also an alcoholic, in denial. He won't get help for the life of him.. but that's whatever. We've never really been much of a wealthy family, but we've also never been flat broke like we are now. I'm tired of seeing my mom down and depressed all the time, it crushes me like y'all don't even know...
I've looked like mad for even a part-time job, and I can't find shit. My city I live in has no oppourtunity whatsoever for a ungraduated 17 year old.
Everything in my life seems so dull.. I don't have a whole lot.. but i mean, i deal with it, whatever. But the thing is, no matter how hard i think i try at life, i cannot succeed..
I mean, i never even feel hopeful anymore.. I just need some kind of motivation.. somethin'... =/
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